The ragged pieces of ideas and thoughts of my attempt to live a life as a contemporary monastic in the urban city of Singapore..
I love chocolate cookies. I was eating some that Mag got for me this morning. As I don't usually have full lunches, these biscuits from Mag stirred up very passionate feelings during my lunch time ..That my dear wife love me very very much.. My heart was filled with sweet fondnes.
However I remember just this morning I had an argument with her and we were making all strange accusations of one another. You know those that's usually not strange then and those you don't normally make in the right frame of mind. At that time, I didn't I feel like Mag loves me at all.
Now... how strange that these two incidents happened on the same day, only a few hours apart. So does Mag love me or not ? Well it depends on how I feel.. or does it ?
We are emotional creatures, we feel a lot and usually how we feel is very far away from truth. There's nothing wrong with feeling a lot and I don't mean there's always no truth in how we feel. Its just that they are two exclusive things and should not be confused to be the same.
The truth is the God is love and God is the only one who's capable of true love. The rest of us are just pretending. Our wives or husbands can't love well, our best friends can't, our leaders can't. Only Christ. So if we need love we better learn to get it there because only Christ has what satisfies. As He gives this to us, we can also learn to give to others as well. Not that we will know how to satisfy the other person, its just that it'll definitely be better than not giving at all. In the same way the person definitely appreciate your attempt (though imperfect) than if you never have tried.
God calls us to love and he doesn't expect perfect love, he expect love to be attempted. As to receiving love, forget about getting it from the people close to you because the expectation will only destroy the relationship, get it from God instead. If you don't know how, learn. It's a worthwhile investment ..
And for those who are married, i should add that this should be a very good tip for survival. :-)
posted by Hiew Hong Teck # 7:02 PM
Friday, September 30, 2005