The ragged pieces of ideas and thoughts of my attempt to live a life as a contemporary monastic in the urban city of Singapore..
Downloaded my first PODCast from the Naxos website. Was about to listen to it in the bus on my way home but Mag decided to pick me up, so now I'm left with no chance to listen to it. I decided to take this 10 minutes waiting time to blog instead. Perhaps I'll try to listen to the audio file tomorrow morning in the bus.
Today I found a sweet potato in my bag. Opps wasn't that suppose to for lunch sometime last week ? I also found a chewing gum which is in my pocket for quite some time. Didn't get a chance to chew on it and now I don't think these things are consumable anymore. I've got rid of them and decided to start anew.
Note: I like starting a new which is the reason why I'm always so disappointed when i don't wake up feeling new. Instead I wake up feeling like I have a past, monkeying on my back. All these are garbage from as early as childhood and as late as just last night. It's our mind playing with thoughts we do not need. We need to control it, tame it and make it a slave. But we don't do it fighting heads on because we will not win. We should allow it to come but we need to be aware of it and watch it closely. When we watch it long enough, they will soon go away. They cannot help but come back because its their nature but we can be watchful. If we are watchful long enough, it'll not enjoy coming back and we will soon wake up feeling new more often. This is all I know about this and thought I should share it.
posted by Hiew Hong Teck # 6:45 PM
Thursday, October 13, 2005