I just attempted to download a 10 Mbyte DirectX runtime component from the internet using my 56K dialup modem and it took 1.5 hours to download up til 5 more minutes to go. And then the connection broke. I stared at the screen in total amazement, I could almost see the screen like a mirror with my face & thick smoke coming out of my ears. It is moments like these it makes me wonder if I should just take the plunge and go broadband. I also thought about what my other options are. Well besides fixing the source of the problem which is the bandwidth, I can fix the real source of the problem which is my inability to not get affected by digital data which consists of bits and bytes.

It's 5 more days to our Christmas Service in the children's church and its time I stop thinking about the children programme and start thinking about the significance of the season, you know what does it all really mean.. We have done our best to plan out the best programme our mind can conceive for the kids and its now best for us to step back and think about it in a deeper manner. Kids are not just an audience for us to practice our new communication tools on but precious lives to sensitively teach and nurture. We have to be accountable for each of these little ones who cross our path. Infact we have to be accountable for everything that cross our path, our talent, money, food, time.... and internet bandwidth! If i have broadband, would it make me work more and spend less time with people ? Would it make me dependent on strange things like efficiency and hinders me to be what God really called me for.

Lately people has blessed me with cool things that amazed me but I've little need for ... a second hand blackberry phone, a USB biometric password manager and some food vouchers. I'm totally grateful for the people who has given me these, more because they thought of me than anything else. Their friendship and love will be remembered long after these gifts are gone. I'm blessed with thoughtfulness of these generous and unpretentious people in my life. I'm thankful this weekend I'll surely get to meet many more little ones who are perhaps the most unpretentious people in the whole world. I'm really looking forward to meeting new kids in our 2 Christmas children services. They give us more than they realise they could give.

Last week after my message, a 11 year old asked me if I was Jesus. I laughed and said no but that He is in my heart. Must then then that he decided to accept Jesus in his too I thought Jesus is such a heavy burden for me to bear but later realised that I was wrong; Jesus is infact directly the opposite, he ain't heavy in my heart. He is light and just right for me. It is a great great joy to be carrying His name.
I'm so proud to be Christian. It's 1:35am and I'm listening to Mahler Symphony Number 2 or the "Ressurection" symphony conducted by Otto Klemperer while writing this blog and it fills me with the greatest pleasure to be serving the resurrected King this Christmas. Merry Christmas everybody and hope you will have the best one yet this year.