The ragged pieces of ideas and thoughts of my attempt to live a life as a contemporary monastic in the urban city of Singapore..
Today’s Father’s day and I can’t help think of my father. My dad’s a hard working man who worked so hard to provide for the family. But more than anything that he gave to us, I appreciate the most that even though he was busy he always had time for us. He was a very present father and the security of his presence when we were growing up meant so much to us.
If there’s something not so great about my dad, it would be that he doesn’t deal on a emotional level. He didn’t talk much, let alone have those one to one conversations with his children. So the time when I was like 17 or 18, when he drove me beside a quiet lake in Ampang to have a father son, one to one time, I thought he was trying to get rid of me. You know something happened at work and he couldn’t support 4 children and one of us have to go type of thing. Well, that day he spoke to me so warmly and firmly. He told me distinctly 2 things I remember til today, the first is that there’s no money in rock’n’roll and I should pick a decent career that feeds mouth. He probably noticed what I was listening to and with Def Leppard and Skid Row posters all over the wall of my bedroom plus friends that I mixed with, I don’t blame him for being concern. (But only if he had heard me sing that he’ll know I have zero future in rock’n’roll or any close). A career that feeds mouth, that's the first thing... the second thing is ..(you know I was a shy & timid boy) he told me that I should not look down on the floor so much cos there’s nothing there for me. Stand tall and be proud of who you are. That day I got lectured big time but you know what I appreciate it! I didn’t then but now I appreciate that not only he has time for me but he cared enough to have expectations of me.
We all have the security of God’s presence. Psalms 121:4 says he who watches over Israel will neither sleep nor slumber. Our heavenly Father doesn’t sleep and if he doesn’t plays golf either, that means he has all the time for us. That is security we all have in him. Have you ever wondered what his expectation is of us? I didn’t like my father’s lecture that day but I was glad that he had expections of me cos today I’m not in rock’n’roll and I’m feeding mouth …. physically and even more spiritually in the children’s church. And I almost never walk with my head looking down now. I thank God that dad had expectations of me.
Today, let’s remember our heavenly Father's promise that He’ll be with us until the end of the age. With that security let’s think about what He expects of us. If we know that and live out that purpose, we’ll never be the same again. I’m pretty sure of that.
posted by Hiew Hong Teck # 12:32 AM
Sunday, June 18, 2006