Mag went for some course with Hope Centre this week. One of the course work requirement is that she has to do something weird in a crowded public place. She chose to walk backwards in crowded Eunos MRT last Wednesday. I was there to see it. It was really funny. The course is on cognitive behaviour therapy and its finally over after one whole week and her funny walk. It was a hectic week for her.

She's out exercising this morning and she had her course folder with her. She told me last night she needed therapy on herself. She wanted to use it to fix certain things about herself before she uses it on others.

As she's exercising and doing these stuff, I'm here reading the words of Jesus again. He talked about why do we look at the speck of sawdust on our brother's eyes and pay no attention to the plank in our own eye? He advised to first take the plank out of our own eye and then we will see clearly to remove the speck from our brother's eye. How ironic.

Yes, we do like to do therapy to almost everyone we meet. We judge others and sometimes think about how to fix them. The truth is that there's always a big plank in our own. When we have a big plank we do not seeing clearly ourselves and the people around us. What is important is the knowledge of the plank.

The second thing I learned from the word of Jesus was about fasting. He said when we fast we should not disfigure our faces to show men we are fasting but to put oil on our head and wash our face so that its not obvious to men but only to God our Father what we do. Things done in secret will be rewarded.

We do what impresses and look good on the outside. Often we miss what is really important. The important thing is the knowledge of the plank. Ourselves! We need to fix us! We need what is important and that is really a true vital relationship with God, our heavenly father who loves us so much and longs for us. We need some self therapy ... and before that, we ought not to even think about using therapy on others.

I believe knowledge or awareness leads to decisions and decisions to change. We need good awareness followed by good actions and then enjoy the change.