The ragged pieces of ideas and thoughts of my attempt to live a life as a contemporary monastic in the urban city of Singapore..
Taking the day off, really had to do it. I sms my boss "I sense some 'tiredness', taking leave today. Want to do some spiritual and emotional stocktake to charge for the week". She replied that October may be the month that I'm more tired. She recalled it was also about this time last year that I was showing signs of burn out.
Read John 14:1-4
"Do not let your hearts be troubled. Trust in God, trust also in me. In my Father's house are many rooms; if it were not so, I would have told you. I am going there to prepare a place for you. And if I go and prepare a place for you, i will come back and take you to be with me that you also may be where I am. You know the way to the place where I am going."The message God gave to me is not be let my hearts be troubled but to trust God.
If its concern about rooms, then there is no need to because the booking has been made for that future 'travel'. Right after, I listened to Burlap to Cashmere singing the chorus to their hit "Stored up, treasures in heaven". I'm adamant to invest in heavenly treasures ... yes, something like, a better looking place, maybe instead of sharing, to have my own room. Maybe with nice interior and a great view of the river. The river of life.
A strong spiritual life is a non negotiable. Everytime I think I can do something for God, I'm taken back by the fact that God wants to do something for me. After a while I notice that the something, is really a strong and blessed spiritual life. I can't fathom it or understand the ways of God sometimes. Maybe because sometimes a spiritual life to be enjoyed, and not be understood.
I want today to be fruitful and yet there's a nudging in my heart to let it be enjoyable because sometimes during rest, such industry is not necessary.
posted by Hiew Hong Teck # 11:36 AM
Monday, October 13, 2008