The ragged pieces of ideas and thoughts of my attempt to live a life as a contemporary monastic in the urban city of Singapore..
I haven't been blogging for quite a while because I discovered a way of writing out my prayers to God in my journal. Like everything else that's new, it was really exciting doing it discovering how my prayers can be so concrete and focused. It was a new experience. It's been around 2 weeks.
On Monday, I lost my journal. The person who found it called yesterday to ask me to collect it from his home. Apparently I dropped it in the middle of road at Carpmael Road near Joo Chiat. I got it back from his maid this morning and when I flipped through the pages, I realised that I do not have my name nor my phone number written in any part of it for him to be able to contact me. I'm curious who the person is and how does he know that the journal belongs to me.
Stranger things have happened but its always the last that kept me wondering, how much in life are things that will meet the eye, the ear or even the intellect. This week a child in service asked me if Eve was not suppose to eat the fruit from the tree then why did God create the tree in the Garden of Eden. Mei Si asked my wife this same week, if she cannot eat sweets why do they sell them in the shops. My question this week is if I cannot have that nice penthouse on top of the hill, then why was it built ?
Ha ha ha, it was build for some other purpose that at the point in time wasn't meant for me. Similarly the fruit wasn't meant for Eve, the sweets wasn't meant for Mei Si, the penthouse just couldn't be mine at that point in time. It's just the order of things and we have to be submissive to that. But who knows, maybe one day, the order may change. But at the moment I'm happy staying in my humble HDB in Tampines. And I'm also happy that I lost my journal for a while that now I appreciate it much more. It's definitely nice also to blog again.
By the way I have a new favourite family photo.
posted by Hiew Hong Teck # 10:19 AM
Tuesday, November 08, 2005